03.06.2005 - It's funny how your babies just grow! Look at them:


They are so beautiful!

08.09.2004 - I got a new puppy. His name is Sanzo Hoshi. Aaron and I named him that. It means High Priest Star. He is a deer chihuahua. Here's the pic:

Isn't he just the sweetest thing ever? As you can tell he is white with silver spots.

05.02.2004 - I totally miss him. Why am I hurting so bad? I miss him. I just hope he makes it back okay. My stomach feels like shit. I'm so tense. I can't bear being apart from him. I miss his kisses. I miss his hugs. I miss his smell. i want him here, in my arms. I can't be selfish though. I feel so selfish. Like he can't have his time alone. I'm sorry for everything that I've ever done to you. I'm sorry for all the things that hurt you. I will try harder for us. I want us to work. I want us to be together forever. I want your children Aaron. I want to share my life with you.

04.29.2004 - I just got released from the hospital. I was at Green Oaks in Dallas. I'm on newer, cheaper drugs now. My thoughts are now going away. I actually got the drive to find a job. I found one for Pace Realty. Awesome company. We'll see now. I hope i can get a job soon so I can get an apartment.

04.07.2004 - I'm getting better as far as my diesease goes. I missed my hospital visit this morning though. OOPS! The meds are doing great. Everything I believe is fine. I don't want to kill myself, even though sometimes I still get the thoughts. I hate that they are vivid. I wish they would just go away, but all I could do is cope with them. It's working. I haven't hurt myself since that last time. I think I'm going to move out very soon. I'm getting an Apartment with Candice. I'm scared shitless, but I know it's for the best. It'll be fun. We'll just have to see.